Properly Subtitled: When the Pain Disappears
1. Write. I have no trouble coming up with subjects to write about, I only have trouble sitting down and writing them. Sitting up for longer than 5 minutes usually has me bent over in pain and stuck on the couch for as long as the kids will leave me alone (read: 2 seconds).
2. Read blogs. Once my laptop is fixed, again, I will have the option of reclining while on the computer. Until then, the desktop is my only option. Which requires sitting up. (See # 1.)
3. Exercise. I realize this is a crazy thing to admit, but I really love exercising. Running, aerobics, dancing, you name it. (Except for yoga. I prefer Yoga after a good cardio workout.) In a regular week, I will use my car maybe once or twice because I enjoy walking to my destinations with the kids--be it the library, the grocery store, or a friend's house. Heck, I've found it to be a lesser hassle to load the kids into the stroller than into their car seats. Unfortunately, I have had to limit my time exercising and even being outside with the kids. Frustrating.
4. Clean. I was able to keep the apartment in tip top shape, until I had the miscarriage. After that, I am lucky if I can wash the dishes. This is one of those times when I really want a dish washer other than myself. (Ben is a huge help in many areas. He lets me lie down for most of the day and does not expect me to do housework.)
5. Hold and play with the kids. At this point, playing with the kids can only be done in short intervals. (I'm talking the rowdy kind of play. Reading books is still an option. ) Also, with Andrew needing me more than ever, I can only hold him while sitting or lying down. Not so easy when it comes to taking care of other responsibilities.
As frustrating as the pain can be, I am grateful for what it has taught me, like how to slow down and listen to my body and how to ask for help. I'm sure the pain will disappear, eventually.
6 hours ago