Friday, February 26, 2010

Sweet Tender Mercies

I didn't know what RSV was until my youngest two siblings were born. Both were premature and both contracted the illness less than 1 month after being released from the hospital. I distinctly remember my sister Livvy's fight.

B and I had offered to watch my siblings while my parents went on a date.  They took Livvy with them because she was too young and fragile to leave at home.  It was the middle of the winter and our house was full of colds.  Kaden was wheezing and acting very sick.  I was worried.  He was prone to on-set asthma and his breathing mirrored those symptoms. I confided my anxieties to B.  We tried the nebulizer.  Nothing.  Tylenol.  No change.

It got to the point that he became eerily listless .  We took him to the E.R.  By the time we were admitted, he was smiling and laughing.  The doctor looked at us with raised eyebrows, but I stood by my decision to bring him.  My parents arrived shortly after they released Him.  They decided that since they were there, they were going to get Livvy checked out.   B and I took Kaden home.  After 30 or so minutes, my mother called to tell me that Livvy was admitted and hooked up to a ventilator.

I helped keep everything running at home while my parents stayed with Livvy.  I will never forget her tiny little body connected to so many wires.

When I heard the diagnosis of RSV from the doctor, my mind leaped to that image of my sister.  I stayed calm, but I was frightened.

After bringing Manly home from the doctor, I held his little body.  I watched as he grew progressively more pale and felt the fever enter his body.  I cried because he refused, as he had all day, to eat. I didn't know what to do.

I turned to my blog and to you, dear readers.  In return I received an outpouring of love.  It soothed me to know that so many people were thinking of my little guy.

When B arrived home, he suggested we give Manly a blessing.  After pouring out our souls and asking God for a tender mercy,  we left the Queen with a baby-sitter and took Manly to the suction clinic at the hospital.  A sweet lady, in seeing the tension in our faces, offered to let us go before her son.  We took Manly up to the office and the Respiratory Therapist worked his magic.  Within minutes, Manly began to calm down.  His breathing became less labored.  He ate without complaint.

Last night was expectedly rough.  His breathing was better, but the rash on his bum continued to pain him.  I would much rather get up to change his diaper than struggle through another night of labored breathing.

This morning he ate.  With less vigor than usual, but he ate.  He also smiled, and giggled, and snuggled.

Thank you for your prayers, thoughts, e-mails, and tweets.  His healing might be slow, with a lingering cough, but I know he is being watched over.


  1. So glad he's doing better. Keeping you all in my prayers!

  2. Glad to hear things are getting better. My little man got RSV two years ago. He was pretty sick, but he did recover. It seems that he is now a little more susceptible and prone to getting the croup, but he does okay. It's so hard to be a mom and watch them be sick. I will keep him and you in my prayers.

  3. You've been so much in my thoughts. The worry over a very sick child is not one I have had yet, but I can imagine (a little anyway) how your heart must be aching, and how exhausted your family must be right now. ~hugs~ So glad he's doing better.

  4. It is totally amazing what prayers can do. My little sis was in Primary Children's hospital a couple years ago, and almost died multiple times. We had family and friends all over praying and fasting for her (we connected with all of them through a blog as well), and I KNOW it works because she's still with us today. SO grateful for tender mercies. Here's to a better night tonight!!

  5. Amber, that time babysitting was good training for parenthood and you did the right thing. Going to the hospital, even if the symptoms resolved, was right based on what you saw at the house, and it ended up with Livvy being admitted! Truly amazing!

    Not breathing is a big burden. I know, I've had chronic asthma since I was eleven and I know my mother lived through a lot of misery watching me labor over each breath. I'm happy to say that my kids, so far, don't have it.

  6. Yay for Manly. Yay for recovery - even if slow.

  7. that is scary. We have been through the RSV thing once before. I am so glad things are getting better. When their appetite gets back that is a great sign and a big relief! Hope things continue to improve with gusto!

  8. Such good news. And a reminder of what really matters in life.

  9. I'm relieved to know that things are looking up! Poor little guy.
    And sorry about his rash. Whenever my kids get one to the point where their skin is raw and bleeding, I will use cornstarch to help and also to keep their bums from rubbing on their diapers. You can always tell it was me who put in the cornstarch by the little white "poof" that appears every time they are set down. My husband is a lot more stingy. =)

    Feel better soon Manly!

  10. Manly is blessed to have such a strong family taking care of him and lifting him up in prayer. Thank you for sharing this experience. I know it must be hard to relive it with your words, but it's nice to know how he's doing.

  11. Oh my gosh! RSV is sooooo scary! Miss D. had it and I literally did not sleep for days. I am so glad he got the care he needed. HUGS!

  12. RSV is pretty scare inducing. I'm glad that he is feeling better. I've never heard of a suction clinic. What is it?

    Anyway, I'm glad he is doing better. Good luck with the rash!

  13. A suction clinic is where they send all the babies and toddlers with RSV. A Respiratory Therapist puts a tube in the baby's nose and sucks all the garbage out. It's basically a glorified version of the nose aspirator (the bulb kind).

  14. So glad that he's better... and you're right, an itchy tush is better than labored breathing - any day! Sending you guys hugs for continued recovery!


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